Empty Hallelujahs and Unconditional Joy

Honestly, this has been the crappiest summer of my life to date. The hour after my final exam, my boyfriend broke up with me. That was the high point. I've done a lot of thinking and questioning and wondering what-ifs. But today I stumbled upon something. I was listening to "Keep My Heart Alive" by Sanctus Real, and at one point in the song he sings, "Take these empty Hallelujahs. Fill my lungs again 'cause I wanna sing, And I wanna mean it. I wanna feel again." That describes this past month. As everything has gone wrong, as my summer and my future has crumbled around me, I have been singing Empty Hallelujahs. I know the Lord is good. I know He loves me beyond what I can imagine. I know I love Him. I know He is to be praised. But I want to FEEL it. I want to get back the passion. I take joy from the things around me way too much, the things that are happening to me. But y'all, the Lord has saved me, how can I not have unconditional joy?? My prayer is that the Lord grows my mustard seed joy!!