This week I've been very agitated and restless because I'm waiting on the Lord [not the "Lord, which path should I take?" kind-of waiting, but the "Lord, open a door. There's nothing here apart from your plan" kind-of waiting.] When I informed my mother of this she pointed out to me that I'd "rather have a 'absolute no' today and go ahead and deal with any fall-out there may be with a negative outcome than have a 'yes' in a week." People, it's truth. It may seem stupid when you read it but I would rather get the answer I don't want, right this moment and tie up the loose ends on my emotions than sit "hanging loose" for a week or so and get the answer I've always desired.
I'm a finisher. I want to check a task off the list and be done with it for good. I don't like to dawdle. I don't like to dwell. It's occasionally not healthy. Case in point: now.
So, I'm waiting. And the Lord is teaching me. And, for this moment, I'm calm and resting in his flawless plan for my life (no promises for 10 minutes from now, though!). I'm reminding myself that I'm so short-sighted that I desire the wrong things, and if I wait with patience and earnestly seek His will then He will guide me where He wants me to go!
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