OH MY STARS!!! I just found out that one of the girls I grew up with is ENGAGED!!!!! She's my age! I think it is absolutely thrilling and I am SO excited for them. But it got me thinking. . . I am old enough to get married now! That's just flat out weird to me! I feel like a 5 year old sometimes walking around pretending to be something I'm not when I am just going to classes! Part of me is jumping out of my skin excited and anxious at the thought and part of me just wants to sob! I'm not a kid anymore, I pay bills and credit card balances, those things will never go away. . . I will never get the carefreeness (I know, it's not a word) of life as a child back.
I feel like time is slipping by so fast and I don't want to go study and I don't want to pay bills. I just want to focus on my relationships with people and bask in the glow of the Lord's creation. But. . . He has called me to be a student and He has me where I am for a reason that will one day be revealed. I do pray for peace and patience every day these days. It's so hard for me to not be able to plan, and the Lord knows that, and I suppose that is why He is making me put all my faith in Him and all my eggs in His basket. I know that He will never drop them though, what a comfort.
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